GO WITH THE FLOW

2012-01-27T01:18:00.001+08:00

karma? nah.

i'm just glad my God is not blind or sleeping.

oil and water, don't bother stirring them together.

初二

went to aijuin's open house! whee!

first time spending cny with her. :)

it was BIG!

lion dance. 6 lions. :O attacked by them so many times. lol.

angpaosss! lao sang! eat eat eat! throwing oranges!

and the most epic, drinking game! everyone died from it.

feel so unlucky sitting next to someone, make me kena twice 'player on your left drinks' T_T ish!

stomach hurts so badly.

we only used drinking water, imagine alcohol. x_x

初三

stella's house to bai nian. :D

cookie and apple! <3

more angpaos! huhuhu!

time for assignments!

when i finally could look up to check the time, an hour gone, again.

burn midnight oil. what holiday is this?

让我死掉算了！

2012-01-22T21:49:00.002+08:00

had my own type of a therapy to heal myself. ignore the asshole, take a deep breathe and move on now. at the same time, got to realize those who only know how to tell others to suck it up when people are having a really difficult time is not worth it. tired of all these. theres alot more ahead waiting for me. walk on.

2012-01-22T14:46:00.001+08:00

there she goes again. acting all pitiful in front of others.
bear in mind that no one will love an ungrateful and fake bitch.

2012-01-20T01:31:00.000+08:00

what is fucking wrong with you?! i can never understand whats going on in your fucked up brain! you think you could just throw your fucking massive tantrum on me then sleep while i have to handle the after effects the whole night?! honestly just fuck you! i don't care about my language just fuck you! you think you're the only one that's tired? you sound like a baby complaining just because you're hungry! what the fuck?! how old are you and you can't find something in the entire house to fill your stomach?! you make it sound like everyone is trying to starve you to death. what did anyone ever ask from you?! whenever you ask from me, i try to give and borrow whatever you needed! sometimes out of fear that you'll ruin my day again that's why i always give in and let you have it your way. nobody owed you anything! and i don't even know why i have the slightest sympathy for a bitch like you! honestly, when did anyone ever walked into your room whenever they want and never get screamed at and pushed out?! i don't even know how to describe that behavior! it's like i'm entering a mentally ill person's room. just you being sick alone is enough! why make me feel like driving myself to the mental hospital to get myself a treatment?! i have plenty of work due tomorrow and everything was on track until you acted like you're possessed and turn the house upside down. you can kick me all you want and you're not wrong. the last time i fight back and you couldn't handle it i was accused for bullying you. fuck that! this time i hold it in and let you do all the hitting in the end i regret it so much!! if he wasn't here you probably can't get up tomorrow! i really hope the whole world knows what kind of fucked up person you are! because of you now my assignments are wet with my tears. cutting the modelling board and move the blade to my wrist. i had to take so many deep breathes to calm myself and wake up from it. fuck you! now i can't sleep and i had to face people and fake hundreds of smiles for the next 24 hours!

2012-01-17T19:27:00.001+08:00

my head is burning.

accumulating heat not wanting to let go.

feel like something is clamping onto my head.

a long blink burns the eye a little.

cold hands and feet.

what a good timing to have fever.

the weather is super hot recently.

its been 2 hours.
too sick to do anything.

2012-01-16T01:51:00.000+08:00

i don't hate doing assignments alone.

but being the only one awake in the house for the entire night feels a little demotivated.

wouldn't it be nice if my momo could be by my side? :(

next time if i could, i'm gonna get a kitten to sit on my lap while i do assignments...

back to work!

2012-01-15T19:05:00.002+08:00

N A M I S E O M

winter

120113

2012-01-15T15:08:00.000+08:00

prayer before dinner.
su: thank you for the food... pray that after eirena eat the pork she won't die... enjoy concert........
me: ...and i pray that we could stand really near to be in awe of your creation.
both: BAHAHAHA. Amen!

prayer answered! XD
so at first when we entered the place. we were super far away from the stage and the PA system is set up right at the middle blocking the view and a super big space separating fanaticzone and partyzone/regular (the party zone and regular were mixed together! D:<) i was super pissed and my mood was completely ruined that time. skip skip skip. but in the end they opened the barrier and separated us and we could go behind the fanatic zone. both of us invaded the fanatic zone and got really near! whee! hohoho! it was so near, so clear, so beautiful! *0* *vomit rainbow* bahahahaha!
everything was so gorgeous, i wish time would just stop or at least slow down...

mark foster! cubbie fink! mark pontius! less than three.
looked much more handsome in real live. XD
mark foster trademark moves: shoulder dance. preaching hands. shuffling from one end to the other end of the stage? XD

its so obvious that he was passionate with what he was doing. he really meant what he sang.
so disappointed that i couldn't take any nice photos. using zoom couldn't capture clear ones. videos? well... i was too high, i couldn't help it and i can't take the video properly knowing i just have to sing or scream or dance or jump then ruining the video. hehehe~ so i decided to forget the terrible camera and enjoy to the max. halfway through i feel really guilty for not taking any good photos or vid cause it's so beautiful. On the cam, n found that it's spoilt. @_@ dad's gonna kill me. so just let me enjoy before i die! T_T then they played 'warrant'!! XD hahaha. but after concert when i on again it's ok. thank you, God!! XS
they didn't perform 'love' and 'chin music for the unsuspecting hero' :(

stranger in front of me got so caught up hoping the crew would throw something to the crowd but then he suddenly remembered something and started asking his friends 'where did i leave my girlfriend? opps!' LOL!

can't wait for their next album!!!

i think my assignments are really taking over my mind's space. all i could ever think from wherever i go or whatever i do is 'i'm gonna sketch this', 'stay still while i quickly scan this into my brain and onto my sketchbook later on', 'where is my sketchbook when i need it?', 'how can i sketch this?', blah blah blah! ah!!! the momentum is still there. turning back into a workaholic again.

thank you su, for... too many things.
today i ate many things i don't usually eat. level up! >:D

midnight.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUETYAN!!! <3
call at a.m. again. hiak hiak.

before i die, i wanna go a concert with my parents.
before i die, i wanna be super lucky for once and catch a drumstick or pick or whatever during a concert. >_<

2012-01-10T00:08:00.000+08:00

before i die,

the GazettE concert! T^T

Gaze rock is not dead!

even went to europe,

Y U NO COME MALAYSIA?! D:

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jokwon and whale!

yaballabahigiamo haimamo hailula! what?!!! XD

________________________________

MILKIS

recently tried this milk soda. *0*

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starting to dislike you more and more.
sounded so uneducated.
don't change too much...

2012-01-03T23:51:00.000+08:00

i'm letting go. finally.
i'm not trying, i will. the way i'd been told.
i'm not happy, at least i'm won't be sad. maybe.

goodnight

2012-01-01T03:59:00.000+08:00

went countdown at desa park city again this year. :D
there were floating lanterns!!! X) so pretty! but didn't get to play one. D:
not as exciting as last year tho.
had sore throat, planned to go just watching the crowd n chillax instead this year.
in the end, i screamed, jumped, and i tu-tu-trained again like last year. monkey. HAHAHA!
while sitting on a rock by the lake with melissa then only i start to feel the after effects.
not gonna write down the bad stuff that happened. =3=

HAPPY 2012!

first photo of 2012! is with melissa! and specs! :D

2011-12-28T11:53:00.001+08:00

the person who is being hurt all along is me, because of their childishness.
they ruined my life once. until now not a single sorry was given.
suit yourself how you wanna take me...

2011-12-27T20:43:00.000+08:00

you act like i'm fine and continue to joke around with me.
i played along to not make you awkward.
truth is, every time i see you i feel like glaring instead of smiling at you.
don't think i forget what you did last time.
my heart may be big enough to forgive but my brain is still unable to forget it.
moved on, who needs you.

same to you too.

2011-12-25T17:04:00.000+08:00

a manlier version of taemin and same name with Gazette's drummer - Kai! XD

2011-12-24T23:35:00.003+08:00

let's not ruin my christmas. stupid me.

2011-12-24T09:09:00.000+08:00

been really lazy to update my blog. hehehe~

dad bought lotsa durian! and mum made durian cake.

melissa taught me to play maple. XD

i'm Aran! huhuhu~

first time playing ady got stranger kacau.

camp was fun! very chill.

beach! <3

many things remind me of you.

not sure if i'd mentioned this, i found back my lost phone long time ago.

the process in retrieving it was long and annoying.

i didn't take any photo during camp cause my poor phone cacat liao.

scratches everywhere, vibrate rosak, the camera pun rosak.

during camp, sand stuck in the keypad, it became very hard to type.

but i don't think i can get a new phone soon. :(

then during camp some people took many of my ugly photos. D': sigh..

miss spending time with my buddies...

magic cards! i was more worried bout my hand than observing the trick. XD

being there makes me feel old. have to start remind myself that now that i'm older, i have bigger responsibility and have to be more aware of those younger than me. to be there for them, able to provide help and solutions when needed.

back from hell. feeling very depressed since a long time.

really hate betrayal and lies.

still, i couldn't blame anyone cause the choice was in my hands.

said i'm gullible. :'(

lukewarm. i admit that's me.

it's not easy for me to burn, i'm just... colder. seeing that it's not just in this, also in every other things in my life too. i don't see myself chasing after other things that i want very much, or at least not always.

i guess that's my nature, always need plenty of time to warm up.

i know He is very patient, but i mustn't take advantage of it. i can't let my feelings out easily.

i know clearly the passion and thirst isn't there in the first place. but the bond is just there and it will always have it's place in my heart. it's something i won't ever let go even if i die. i'd made my decision so i won't look back.

if anyone in this world could be used to relate Him with would be my father,

saying i love him but i realized that i hardly make him feel proud or pleased with me.

very disappointed with myself. :'(

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don't like how flat my hair is cause its too straight,

so i'd been wanting to cut fringe for a long time.

and today i finally cut my hair.

the hair stylist purposely drag the time, wash so slowly even when i don't want to, cut so slow, some more so ugly, until i also dunno how to explain to him, i gave up!

time to pay... SI BEH EXPENSIVE!!! D:<

stare at the mirror for so long before walking out to saloon. gah!!!

THE FEEL IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT!

i won't come here anymore...

when i run around, the fringe would bounce on my face.

makes me feel like a little girl. feel like going back to kindergarden.

mum said that i looked 5 years younger. not sure whether to laugh or frown.

maybe i'm more suitable having a mature look... sigh...

gonna dye next. if not macam cleopatra. hope it won't become worse.

jangan ruin christmas saya, dahlah sangat lonely.

wuu~ wuu~

T_____T

one more week till sem 2 starts! D:

before panda mode starts again,

gonna party while i still can! *0*

how to have lotsa fun without spending and eat so much? think! T_T

confession

wonder if you still remember this. i used to not know what 'beb' means. potong steam... sorry! T_T

点点滴滴

2011-12-14T04:14:00.000+08:00

终于能拥抱的那一天，还要多久？

虽然事实上好像很难想像那天的到来。

可是为什么今晚我突然有了那个信心他会实现？

很想你，非常的想你。

那么久以来，从来没有像现在那么想你，

到那么孤单，伤心又自责的程度。

最近发生的事不停使你出现在我脑海里。

不停的想回所发生的一切，

后悔不懂得珍惜多一些，后悔那么马虎，后悔当时不了解。

发觉给了你不少的失望，真的不知该怎么补回，好像没有什么值得计较了。

就这样，每天都不知道应该希望时光会倒流还是快速前进。

如果真的能回到当初，说不定我们之间比如今走得更远了。。。

现在我们好像只能继续等下去，顺便想念你的身高，你的眼神，你装不在乎但事实上比我更慌更细心，不开口也知道彼此在想些什么的默契，你让我又闷又笑的缺点，你又幼稚又成熟。

我们所有的，让我觉得周围的算什么？算爱吗？算认真吗？能取代吗？不。

想念是一种习惯了。

oh my sanity...

2011-11-29T19:32:00.000+08:00

God really is testing my patience.

i must score well.

endure.

2011-11-27T04:39:00.000+08:00

my favourite weather.
you know why?

http://www.rainymood.com/

wish i could see rainbows more often.
and no, this is not the reason

111125 2PM Hands Up Tour

2011-11-26T14:25:00.000+08:00

got to attend another concert this year without need to pay anything. huhuhu~
the concert was '10 points out of 10'!
now my bias are chansung and wooyoung. ;P
both of them keep teasing the fans. hahahaha!
i can't say i'm a hottest but i'll support them! :D
compared to KMW, i didn't got as high.
didn't sweat as much and my hair was still fine after the concert. XD
didn't take many photos only videos again and i was sitting the furthest from the stage.

ready for concert!

camwhore since a long time~ kekeke~ lalala~

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the last time i went sungei wang i saw this!!!

and my mum was willing to buy for me as christmas present.

i was surprised that she said ok when i asked! X)

when i checked the disc there were few scratches and no subtitle so i decided not to buy. T_T

recently found a live version of senorita. me gusta~ XD

i reason with my cigarette

then say, 'your hair's on fire, you must have lost your wits, yeah?'

they're coming!!! OH YEAH! ♥

19.11.11 Barbecueee

2011-11-19T21:44:00.001+08:00

glow united outing! barbeque at tammy's place.

and my first barbeque. huhuhu~

prepared skewer and marshmallow.

been a long time since i prepared food.

marinated chicken in black pepper sauce.

sweet and soft marshmallow. <3

eat-cucuk-cucuk-eat-cucuk. lol.

maybe next time marshmallow can replace chocolate when i'm down. hehehe.

fed up

2011-11-19T13:27:00.001+08:00

didn't know how serious it was until i had to give myself a hug and everything becomes a blur.
it's been almost a month since i've been happy, truly deeply happy.
bad things just keeps happening.
when i think it's slowly getting better, another trouble comes.
all the while, it's been like this.
when something really good happens, something really bad would happen next.
when something bad happens, something good will happen next.
i just can't stay happy long no matter how i try, bad thing would really happen.
couldn't let my guard down from having too much fun.

i'm tired of being nice when others keep hurting me.
i'm tired of being told i'm mean when they're the ones hurting me.
i'm tired of constantly being unappreciated.
i'm tired of having to bear with indifference of others.
i'm tired of hearing little complaints that doesn't matter.
i'm tired of seeing people who never worked hard enjoying whats others'
i'm tired of being insecure and confused with what's going on.
i'm tired of realising my own feelings so slowly.
i'm tired of looking at the distance in photos.
i'm tired of always being the one hanging.
i'm tired of holding on to unkept promises of others.
i'm tired of giving trust and letting it get abused over an over.
i'm tired of acting like i'm fine with it and move on knowing i wasn't.
i'm tired with how i'm just so used to holding it in.
i'm tired of this 'routine' and waiting for things to change.
i'm tired of how i just wanna avoid conflict and take it all in.
i'm tired of forgiving and easily forgetting.
i'm fucking sick and tired for only realizing now.

this is just a reminder for myself.
i will never let you know.
i will never get close to you anymore.
i will never sacrifice for anyone easily again.
i will never care for you more than i would care for myself.
i will never spend another second on meaningless 'love' coming my way.
i will never take a second look at people who mistreated me.
i will never let my naivete get me so easily again.

it's not selfish.
if not i would be the one to suffer.
i have had enough.
i don't owe anyone anything.
i'll wait for a miracle to happen. until then...

2011-11-19T13:05:00.000+08:00

used to be my fuel once a week to stay happy
i need it to refill now to survive...
10 seconds of those moments is enough.

2011-11-13T22:48:00.002+08:00

all over the floor
not gonna comb my hair. :(
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popular sanguine + perfect melancholy
i wouldn't wanna date someone exactly like me.
cause i don't think i can handle a person like me.
guess opposite attracts is true.
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saturday
for the whole morning,
all i did was wait.
i think i inhaled lots of carbon monoxide.
sakae sushi with aijuin.
wasabi challenge.
'ranting' bout terrible leadership, etc.
sitting on the floor, enjoying chocolate fondue.
decorating ourselves like no ones watching.

girl talk till am.
with people like these in this world, i can never have security.
what more i'm so naive.
世界上没有“靠岸”这东西。
never expect anything. never will.
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sunday
rain rain rain...
bibimbap and dukbokki crave satisfied.
lotsa doggiessss!
aku dengan melissa pun tak henti meraba-raba. XD

we realized that girls like big dogs, guys like miniatures.

so many handsome huskies! so fluffy i'm gonna die! XD

buddies for life.

steamboat and chicken wings!
fishball phobia.
now i'm praying that i won't throw objects tomorrow.
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끝

2011-11-13T21:47:00.000+08:00

nagging me to sleep early

just so i could wake up a little earlier for breakfast with you.

gym

2011-11-13T21:36:00.001+08:00

time: one hour
distance: five point two kilometres
result: gluttony

drafts

2011-11-01T19:09:00.000+08:00

not meant to be read

2011-10-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

munjawasshong~ munjawasshong~

lost my beb... T___T sigh...
thinking back i feel like slapping myself.

2011-10-29T21:03:00.001+08:00

one thing you just can't seem to give me, security.

i might end up being the one left hanging on

i want a miracle... sigh...

2011-10-28T18:00:00.000+08:00

oh! almost forgot. X)

H A P P Y

B I R T H D A Y

戒

into 30's

2011-10-28T17:19:00.000+08:00

alcohol replaced with carbonated drink

always

2011-10-28T14:58:00.001+08:00

it's still in there somewhere,
probably hibernating cause you're not around.
don't wanna see anyone other than you,
and nobody else could pull her out.

same here...

2011-10-27T21:28:00.002+08:00

2011-10-25T19:02:00.000+08:00

carelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelessrepeatedcountlesserrorcarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscarelesscareless

2011-10-24T22:11:00.000+08:00

this naiveté of mine...
what should i do with it?

i hate you now

2011-10-23T13:10:00.001+08:00

steady my breathing

silently screaming

2011-10-20T23:17:00.000+08:00

trying not to complaint

bound to you

2011-10-08T23:15:00.001+08:00

all those 'talking'

but i'm more scared that one day they don't mean anything to you anymore

don't let that happen... i don't want that to happen...

2011-10-01T04:10:00.000+08:00

if all these pressure is only resulting you to complaint then you're not learning anything...

2011-09-29T01:29:00.000+08:00

finally, now i'm really starting to miss you.
no one like you.

T O N I G H T

2011-09-24T12:59:00.001+08:00

such a beautiful night

can't wait to hear your voice!

2011-09-24T01:10:00.001+08:00

why do You always let things happen this way?
it's hard not to think that you're toying with my emotions...

i was needing and waiting for that one person. you.
but why is it that every single time so many other unfamiliar people shows up instead of you.
you just never notice... never. not one bit.
even if you've always wanted to.

even all they could do is guess and try to figure out.
can't just tell it...
cause i'm not ready, i don't think you're ready enough for me.

such a liar.
no, i'm not fine, at all, not once.
don't ask why,
cause it's not helping, don't even know where to start,
i guess i lost it somewhere long ago.

2011-09-23T10:02:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Key!!!

\(^0^)/

SHINee's multi-talented 'mother' and fashionista.

2011-09-22T13:18:00.000+08:00

Well I'm just gonna do what I gotta do here
Cause I gotta keep myself free

We've got nothing to prove
Your social guides give you swollen eyes
But what I've got can't
Be bought so you can just

Call it what you want

We've got nothing to lose

2011-09-21T22:15:00.001+08:00

why am i not convinced at all?...

2011-09-20T22:36:00.001+08:00

a firefly in my hands

if only i could hold on to it the whole night, instead of 5 seconds...
just one night

cannonball!
jumping off recklessly
maybe when i come to surface
i might end up somewhere else

i'm on the right track but why i still feel lost from time to time?

why the past again?

what season is this?
like summer and winter every second.

别这样，我的心很容易被动摇。。。

under the stars
starlight moonlight
you know how they say when you miss someone,
look at the moon.
maybe somewhere far away that person might be looking at the same moon.
but i guess it's impossible for me.

wish you were here

Foster the People

2011-09-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

less than three! XD

2011-09-14T22:34:00.000+08:00

feels like i'm in a rojak, so hard to find the same fruit as me. lol.

i think i'm destined to have panda eyes all my life. @_@

CAMP TOMORROW!!! whee!
but it's not like i can sleep till noon. sigh =_=

another sat-tur-dae

2011-09-11T01:38:00.000+08:00

visited rumah kanak-kanak again. ^^
the moment you sit down they would surround you, start playing with your hair, wanting hugs and attention.
i had to stand up to breathe. *0* hahaha.
comparing them with other kids nowadays who only bother playing ipad or iphone and oblivious to the love that their parents trying to show them, i feel so sad and a little disgusted.
i know that's how the generation now is, but i'm not sure whether i want my children to be this way in the future... :'( idk whether it's about right or wrong, keeping up with the trend or whatever.
since now i'm very worried bout my future, planning and working hard wanting to make sure that everything will not be wasted. at least i have my father to guide and support me.
seeing rich kids who waste their time partying when they should focus on their studies, not worrying or appreciating pisses me off.
what about them?... they don't have much choice...
pray for their future.

tried macaroons for the first time today! X)
it's sooo sweet. quite disappointed. i've been waiting to try it but now that i do, it doesn't taste as good as i thought it would.

bonding with cousin sis! hehe.
drove my sis, cousin sis n grandma out for dinner. ^^
youngest driving. proud proud~ XD
danced together, but grandma didn't join us. lol.

finally learnt a new dance after such a long time. woots! \(^0^)/
grandma said i'm thin but my thighs are thick! OUCH! I KNOW LA. T_____T
always wished my legs were slimmer. sigh...

pray that my sore throat would faster heal. X(
it's been 5 days. feels like it's been cut inside.*___*
feel like cutting my hair short again, more convenient.
if not, i need to trim and style my hair.
what style should i choose leh?~ or should i just let the hair stylist do whatever he wants with it? XD
yesterday i had a dream where my hair is back to boy cut and the colour was like yellow green. NEON!
walking around in my high school, shining~ shiny~ shinee~ XD

2011-09-10T16:15:00.001+08:00

In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.

Not me, not anymore...

Green light is on, so its time to go.

But I can't just leave you and go

I hear honks sayin I gotta move

But this feels like the end

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悲伤的时候，淋一下雨也不错。

感觉好像有人陪我一起沉默。

winter garden, institute of the ursulines

2011-09-04T21:37:00.000+08:00

2011-09-04T01:05:00.000+08:00

play hard.
work harder.

there's time for everything.
stop playing, addict.
wasted.

2011-09-01T01:09:00.000+08:00

it's annoying how i'd been busy the entire day, everyday.
still... you barge in during my few hours of sleep.

____

i don't understand myself
maybe you know better

i can lead you to the destination
but i don't know the address

2011-08-28T02:27:00.001+08:00

you didn't ask so why should i?

i asked twice, in case you forgot, like the way you always do.

i have my own problems to worry about.

as long as you don't add more complications into my life, you're helping already.

2011-08-27T11:00:00.004+08:00

牺牲了我的时间, 很努力和认真地去做。

什么都不清楚也不理解一下，也没付出到什么就只有不停的废话一大堆，一点都不珍惜。

当时已经累得一句话都不想说了，你却把我的心情搞杂可能也没发觉到。
不知道是不是特地要讽刺我，但看着你的情况就只好忍着我的脾气，做个出气筒。

抱怨说我什么都不跟你说。
别假好心了，很明显你其实一点都不在乎。
跟你说过的话就好像没说过一样，没有任何改变。
同样的问题问了几百次，很肯定未来还会再重复。
每次需要你的时候人一定会失踪掉。
干脆把你的电话丢掉算了。

终于回来了却发生这种事，还要收拾别人的烂摊子。
没关系，以为帮了人家却被骂乱插手。
另一个却根本不在乎。
吵的却是那么无聊的事情。

觉得你需要知道的时候就会自然的告诉你。
只要静静的陪在我身边就够了。

你就这样离开吧。。。
事情现在会到这地步是你选择的。
我也做不到什么。。。

需要拥抱的人是我，反而只能给别人拥抱。
我到底属于哪里？

2011-08-26T02:03:00.001+08:00

first digital application lesson today.
using mac and ai.
feels a bit dumb. lol
measured a room.
played badminton and swimming.
first business presentation.

feel like i'd abused myself physically, mentally and emotionally.
mind just keeps shutting down.
i can't do anything in this condition.

need you now.

2011-08-23T21:53:00.001+08:00

since there are no best in this world,
i guess there is no best friends either.
for me i only have close friend.
don't believe in forever,
i don't trust the forever that comes out of a person's mouth.
Liars...
_________

feeling guilty. trying to attain forgiveness.
but wait, you spelled my name wrong!
this is ridiculous. you're ridiculous. heck.
i still forgave you anyway. ish.
_________

i like being in a new class, meeting new people,
just dislike the part where i explains my name.
it always go this way. predictable.
they would pronounce it as, tan ai leh or ai-ree-na.

2011-08-22T18:27:00.000+08:00

醋 - 麻 - 算

no games.

2011-08-22T07:48:00.000+08:00

it's 7:35am and i'm wasting my time here waiting for class to start.
i don't remember sleeping last night.
laying on my bed, trying everything to put myself to sleep.
my mind was so clear and awake the whole night,
maybe cause i've been sleeping so late recently.
to be honest, 5am? more like sleeping early.

gonna go upstairs and waste more time. bubye~

장근석

2011-08-21T02:55:00.001+08:00

rewatched a few episodes of You're Beautiful.

Jang Geun Suk!!! <3

fangirling~ hehehehehe~

love geunsuk's voice and smile! XD

and his style in the drama. >_<

lime green, yellow or black?

hot tea, water or juice? XD

i also want a handmade plushie and hairclip!

watching the making makes me so high. haha! cause they kissed too many times!!! kyaa!!! don't know repeated how many times! bahahaha!

and this! HAHAHAHAHAHA! cannot stop laughing! XD

_____________________

stop

2011-08-20T00:32:00.004+08:00

raining everyday. ♥

_____

S H I V E R

Even if… the endless sorrow steals you away
Don’t forget about the days when you thought “Goodbye” was a lie
The sky you saw all alone and the dreams you had while we passed each other by-
They remain as they were on that day, nothing is changing
Inside of you now and forever…
_____

remember the urge!
repeating vortex while waiting for toxic.
love uru's guitar solo

APA SATU HARI !

2011-08-19T04:00:00.002+08:00

so... this is how my day started yesterday.
i received a text in the morning.
*good morning jenny.
who is this?
r u jenny? im john frm kl.
nope. i think you have the wrong number.
oh ..anyway hv nice day.. :)*
BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! XD
i had a really long dream that night so while blogging this i was wondering whether this text was real. i had to check my inbox again. XD i was still very blur when reading the message, just woke up.
wouldn't it be great to receive 'good morning eirena' instead?! =____=

then i'm off to see my beloved chienmin~ <3
taylor's lakeside is so nice... =3=
we love jang geun suk!!! kyaa!! XD
after that, melissa~
i two-timed~ ;P hahaha.
miss them so muchie! finally get to see them. ^^
i eat eat eat. *0*
itallian japanese korean taiwanese. hohoho.
then we went to her college, sunway uni for fun~
ask her to bring me tour around. hehe. then meet up with another ex-classmate.
she had basketball club so we just went with her.
guess what? i brought the rain along with me again. =_=
play halfway rainnnnn. semua basah. nevermind! then i fell hard landing with my butt, just sit there. T^T
why does it always rain when i'm out to play?! T_T i don't mind playing in the rain but not when i'm not ready la!

skip skip to when i wanna go back.
i was finding my parking.
have you ever watch those ghost movies where the elevator's door opens, ends up you're in a different dimension, the place is all dark and you're all alone, froze there...
well this happened to me many times!!! T^T
the last time i got lost at taylor's sri hartamas parking.
i went to a lift and just pressed my floor and i ended up somewhere completely empty.
i thought i could walk to find my car so i just kept walking... mana tau ended up at a construction site and i can't go back from where i came from. i bet the those construction workers and contractors looking at me were thinking why am i doing here. =_=|||| just gonna keep walking...
compared to that day, at least i didn't walk that much. but i was shocked twice when the elevator door opens!
nevermind!! parking RM7. =_=

this is my first time driving to sunway.
then... i got lost on my way back...
TT_____________TT
i seriously wished my dad would pop up beside me like a genie and start giving me directions.
that stupid cross junction! stupid road sign. it says go straight to damansara. i go straight, ends up at shah alam highway! stupid toll! stupid flyover! so high and it just keeps going without a u-turn!
so, i made 2 mistakes at the same cross-junction thanks to the confusing road signs.
thank God i'm not the type that would freak out.
each mistake cost me (well, my dad) 2 toll fare.
the petrol! sorry daddy... X'(
looking at the map now just makes me speechless... got lost till so far... sigh
feels weird. it's as if i didn't got lost for no reason.
i ended up seeing places i've been curious about, heard of or going soon... maybe
conclusion, i like u-turns!!! XD
and honestly i'm not that bad in directions. i have better memories of roads compared to my friends. who designed these buildings and road signs?! XP

tomorrow i'm just gonna stay home and spend more quality time with my bed instead! >3<
and maybe wash the toilet, iron my clothes, tidy my room, clean ac... argh!!!

just thinking maybe i deserve better

syndrome

2011-08-17T17:33:00.004+08:00

like a star, too far for me.

____

I don't know why you made things the way they are now.
But i have faith that i'll be happy in the end.
i'll be happy in the end, right?
maybe you have someone better for me in the future or we might meet again in the future when we're ready.
just give me some sort of a shelter for now, a distraction.
or is it you want me to go through this for a reason?

yesterday night was the second time, because of you.
so sick of love songs.
just gonna focus on my study... sigh

2011-08-16T19:52:00.000+08:00

心疼

失望又失望

2011-08-16T19:33:00.001+08:00

the choice is in your hands.
i think i've done my part, i don't care anymore.
if you want changes, you make them.
who do you think you are?

就继续白等，也顺便继续失望下去。
废话一大堆！
没有努力到就别期待些什么。
心是冷的，非常了解这一点，所以不怕后悔。
别以为一天人家会自然地向你的方向跑去，因为一点都不值得在你身上浪费时间。
自私！

这将是我对你最后写的提示，看不懂就算了！

吃巧克力去！>:(

2011-08-14T23:50:00.000+08:00

just wanna take the keys and drive away from here.

i'll be back. you know that. so nothing changed.

i thought i didn't give enough attention to you.

but it seems that you're already getting used to how things are going.

i guess i'll just do whatever i want from now on.

don't try to act like you care and when i'm there for you to care you don't.

it would be easier if i let me take care of myself.

since you can't. at all. never.

2011-08-12T00:23:00.000+08:00

entire day in karaoke,
the birthday girl's scream is still replaying in my head.
3 things to describe her: hyper, rocky and hello kitty. XD
the ice cream cake was frozen and too hard to cut, so we just eat it that way. we cool like that. ;P

faint smell of cigarette smoke on my hair...

i was thinking,
started from tobacco leaves, to the factory, to a shop, in and out from a stranger's lungs, suspend in the air, stays on my hair and now i hope it won't stay on my pillowcase.

finally got the time to just walk around alone aimlessly and just look around.

feeling weak,
but i would never give in.
that's just me...

2011-08-11T00:27:00.002+08:00

what about the times when you're being unreasonable to me?
i'm always trying to match with everyone but how often do any of you do the same for me?...
there's just so many times you did me wrong and i'd already let it go.
you expect me to not correct anything or mention what's going wrong
and just watch the mistakes being played out.
when things gone chaos you want me to just keep quiet about it.
don't blame on me for being too hard on you when you can't handle things well.
if i shut my mouth, i would always end up cleaning up your mess.
if i constantly remind you, you would think i'm hating on you.
i'm being realistic and if i don't give a damn about you, i would just let things be and watch from the side.

you don't care
you don't notice
you don't appreciate
it's sad. i don't think i want someone selfish like you to be my friend.

did your job for you.
i'm starting to become confused...
_______

anyways!
- got full marks for two projects this week!!! X) whee! praise the Lord!
- had make up for presentation this morning. @_@
- semester 1 is done! i'm gonna sleep till noon! >:-D
- it's funny how someone you least expected would be the one there to care for you.
- i just realised i only had one meal today. that one meal tastes the best! mum's asam laksa~ when everything is finally done, can relax and eat. no need to rush. since i eat super slow. =_=
- i love how she could always tell i needed and wanted a hug when i just walked to her side. don't have to say anything. <3
- i can feel my cheeks a little chubbier. XD i'm on diet, starting... now!

TIME TO PARTAYYY!!!
\(>0<)/

2011-08-08T05:29:00.000+08:00

usually i depend on the sugar in the coffee to keep me awake.
but now it's the bitterness of the coffee that's keeping me awake.
caffeineee.
3rd coffee today. X(
singing also helps. lol.

3 more days! then one week break! ^0^
first thing i'm gonna do is sleep for 24 hours.
i ffk many friends countless times.
lots of debts to pay. XD

______

as a leader i think i'd sacrificed more than necessary.
i did for everyone what should be their job in the first place.
i didn't say anything, didn't ask anything in return.
but instead you shove more work for me, the way you talk as if i owe it to you or like it's supposed to be my work.
are you listening to yourself?
i'm not gonna be there for them forever, i had to let go and let them learn themselves.
don't think i'm being inconsiderate and leave them in pits.
it's not like i'm standing at a corner and watch them fall.
ps: if you have something to say, say it loud and clear to my face. stop mumbling. i'm ready to hear whatever crap you wanna say.

2011-08-07T18:23:00.000+08:00

又让我微笑了~ =^-^=
心情变得好多~ ♥
这星期继续加油到底~

2011-08-05T00:57:00.001+08:00

gave a surprise party to Rou today~
suppose to make her cry then surprise her.
the problem is all of us had a very hard time trying to ruin her mood(make her cry).
there's nothing to scold or blame her for.
she's just so innocent and calm.
i remember saying 'don't bring the cake in yet, she haven't cry' hahaha!
her boyfriend was a great weapon to make her cry, super effective~ XD
but honestly, watching her cry i felt so bad and almost cried also.
super kesian weh! T_T
off all lights, brings cake in, tadaa! first time seeing her cry till so serious. 0_0
after recovering from crying, she had to pull the candle out with her mouth.
i pushed her face into the cake then she started to cry again!!! T^T omagot!!!
faster wipe for her! >_< don't cry!
Rou, i love you! thank you for everything so far. ^_^

anyways,
back to work again!
art history assignment deadline tomorrow.
tomorrow there's also art history exam and i still haven't even read a page. T_T
had an hour of nap and coffee cause i'm not gonna sleep tonight.
so afraid to sleep cause i know it won't be easy for me to wake up.
set alarm and had 2 people to wake me up. XD

another night.

2011-08-03T00:48:00.001+08:00

honestly i can't stand rich spoiled kids.
stop showing off, acting like you're a boss or thinking your standard is higher than others.
enjoy your stupid life all you want and stop bragging.
you're not rich, your dad is!
fuck off!

2011-08-02T14:57:00.000+08:00

too lazy to complaint

谢谢

2011-07-31T01:19:00.001+08:00

谢谢你。
不太在乎我那张常被人误会冷淡的外表，不在乎外人的想法，依然和我说笑。
刚好我沉默或疲倦的时候出现在我面前，然后简简单单的就能让我微笑了。
'懂得让我微笑的人
再没有人比你有天份'
你对我小小的体贴，我永远都会好好记在心里的。
担心的是，你的热情让我提醒自己别想太多。。。

相反的，对他，
最好还是别期待太多，得到的却只有失望，又期待，又失望。。。
为什么最终还是选择你？
'我只愿守护由你给我的幸福'

- 非你莫属 -
_______

遇到對的人是種緣分

你要去瞄準你要的人
不再被動的等
送上嘴唇變成你的人

now i feel like rewatching 'It Started with a Kiss' 惡作剧之吻。。。

2011-07-30T00:01:00.003+08:00

crossing each other all the time.

___

It's like we at 2 places but different paces

We in trouble but you won't meet me at the bridge

It hurts and feels discerning

Did you forget where your heart lives

2011-07-28T02:41:00.001+08:00

yesterday
whole class actually went on a bus together to old town just for lunch together for the first time. lol.
after lunch all of us went to McD for ice-cream. ^^
workshop.
our chair is almost done! can sit already. woots!
still need to do some deco.
8 of us including uncle had dinner together! first time again. haha.
nasi lemak at bumbung. recommended by uncle. yummm!
night, practice sketching perspective till 3:30am...
been so long since i draw lines without ruler.
the toning takes so much time, keep repeating in my head 'i wanna sleep. i wanna sleep'.
for the last 3 days i slept less than 5 hours. tired...
first time quickly shade till so rough.

today,
had to take the train to klcc.
ktm sucks as usual. i can only buy one way ticket to klcc at kl sentral.
the ticket went in the machine and never came back out!
i thought it's ok, maybe when exiting won't need the ticket.
mana tau, reach there no ticket to exit, then i explain to the person, she said have to pay again.
i was like wtf?! fine, just wanna hurry and get out of this place. ugh! wasted RM1.60.
i'm trying to budget here!
met my friends at klcc's food court and wanna buy coffee. RM1.60 again. i hate this number! D:<

time to sketchhhh, at the park! ^^
i wanted to sketch the dolphin sculpture but i can't go alone so i pulled one of my friend with me. XD
she is obsessed with foreigners. keep on 'ang mo! ang mo!'
there's so many of them at klcc, not sure if she could focus. haha.
one pass by then look, another one walk by look again~
we saw a few handsome ones but then their gf suddenly pop then i just comfort her 'too bad~' haha
thank God the weather was perfect.
not very hot. i was sitting under a tree. can feel a few drops of rain but it only rained after we finish sketching. ^^
by the pool there's 2 female guards sitting beside me, keep on blowing whistle and shout 'HELLO! NO KASUT!' =_=
can't they get a sign board and put there?!
a couple of foreigner talked to mehhh. haha.

went to contemporary water colour gallery, Figure In Paint.
but honestly nothing actually caught my attention...
saw our lecturer's work there~ i know an artist~ Khairul Azmir! hahaha.
and guess what, i dreamt about his work before! @_@
scary... that small wings, and one arm. gosh...
then, draw again... just because we can get a gift. XD
btw, our lecturer just released a new children book. i think it's 'we saved the moon'?
met my ex-classmate on the way back at ktm! ^^

lazy upload photos...
now my eyes are killing me!

2011-07-22T16:37:00.000+08:00

when i got too close,
i end up being too aloof and careless of other's feeling.

when i'm keeping a distance,
i end up being too careful and people feels i'm too cold.

bear with me, baby...

2011-07-22T01:09:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

T______________________T

2011-07-22T00:51:00.001+08:00

i'm just gonna crap bout my love for the GazettE in this post, don't bother me~ XP

listening to the koxx reminds of gazette cause of Ruki's terrible english pronounciation. XD
reading the lyrics while listening to the song just makes me speechless. lol...
but he wrote them till this level. as a japanese i guess he worked really hard. ;P
and again! what happened to their vids in youtube?!!!
i have more of their videos and songs in my hard drive than in youtube.
can't find nausea & shudder(db live) on youtube. i prefer that over the studio recorded.
the last time i went Taiwan, as usual i'll step into a disc shop when i see one. =_=
they sell Gazette's album there!!! no money!!! T___T
that was the first time seeing their album in reality! wuuu....
it's been ages since i checked on them.
their age is around 30 now. =_=
they should hurry and marry. or maybe they're already secretly married. XD

re-watched Repeated Countless Error and Road of Nameless Liberty Six Guns again.
gah! Kai-effect is more serious than Taemin-effect. XD what's with my taste. =_=|||
lol. he always plays the drum so hard that after every live he needs to put ice on his arms.

♥ kai's dimple, voice, awkward moment - hitting the drum twice as long and the others go 'uhh' (0_0) looking at each other, fell off the chair when drumming, forgetful disease, making french toast to cheer the members up. XD memories~
hardly see him smile and being dorky now. looks more fierce now. the stupid make up. =_=
don't forget the other members. =D

aoi: this tour is gonna be a dvd! yeah!~ (>:-D)
reita: really? (0_0)
aoi: it will be a dvd!
reita: really?
aoi: coming soon!
reita: all right!~ (*3*)

aoi: *plays guitar* can you do it?!~ x2 (>:-D)
kai: *yawns and nod* haaa-aa!~
aoi: =_=
team spirit! yeah~ XD hahaha.

kai : 'the fans are the sixth member of the band.' ^^

Can you hear the counting song of pain, baby?

The president.

[I want to scatter your face.]

Depicting the answer reflected in your eyes

[I want to scatter your trick]

Can you hear the counting song of pain, baby?

The president.

[I want to scatter your excuse.]

The black day still won't fade

A prosecute. Your luck will run out someday.

Washed away faults and expressionlessness and powerlessness

Even if time is longing for oblivion I won't forget

'loop answering your own questions'

btw, people ask why i like them.
because... i don't know. =_=
but i don't like their make up, clothes, the way the vocalist kept moving their hands when singing.
plus, i'm not a visual kei fan, only listen to gazette and alice nine.

now another dude told me not to listen to these so much. *sigh* =S

2011-07-20T01:35:00.001+08:00

feel like going on the biggest ferris wheel ever built

and stop forever at the highest point.

2011-07-19T01:00:00.000+08:00

found this korean band yesterday.
i was trying not to laugh while listening closely to the lyrics but the moment he sings 'RPM!' idk why i just can't hold it anymore. their accent is still there.

like! ^^

it's been a long time since i listened to thisss

_________________________
so i decided to accept my lecturer's idea in added feathers to my sculpture which i totally don't want. T_T
i was planning to do a totally clean sculpture. just paper clay with very detailed carving and shaping of body features not mixed medium cause it'll looks messy.
now it looks like chicken laaaaaa.
i looked at it just now and started laughing in vain.
basically laughing at myself. sigh...

today in class i got a incubus poster from a free magazine! ^^
but its not really nice...
then i started reading the articles and look at their photos.
brandon quite handsome leh! hehehehe~
and his birthday is 2 days before mine~ lalala~ XD
i like my birth date laaa, thanks mummy n daddy~
no one in my class knows them or any english bands. =_=
all of them listen to chinese or korean... sigh...

finished my first charcoal sketching today! ^^
goes to the wall.

drinking a can of coffee everyday.
collecting tin cans for project. lol.
hope i don't get addicted. D=

being a leader is such a pain in the neck. T_T
especially when some people keep rushing you when they're not contributing much... =_=
aigoo... i get it already! i'm doing my best to give you the best! be patient...

this friday gonna have pot bless at a palace! XD

dunno why they called his house a palace, must be very nice i guess?

don't know how to prepare food when i'm out entire morning till noon at college rushing project.

wonder if i could go to the palace to prepare food. hahaha.

but i still haven't decided what to prepare. >_<

BGR talk, wonder what topic they'll talk bout... =_=|||||

hope that i'll have a few super weird dreams these few days so i could do my surrealism assignment! XD

recently i only have super long logical dreams~

or like premonition dreams. hahaha. they really happened lo!

____________________

update done! continue work!

let's do this! >_<

2011-07-18T21:27:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TAEMIN!

2011-07-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

what is up with some people, keep repeating mistakes and only expect others to accept them for the way they are.
don't even bother trying to improve themselves.
sometimes people would understand and try to tolerate, but please don't take advantage and overdo it.
that's selfish.

2011-07-12T22:20:00.000+08:00

you don't realize.
why didn't i realize earlier?
was i blinded by it?
if this is not the case, prove it to me, make things clear, change my mind.
slowly slipping off subconsciously.

heart's colour is changing.
maybe later on, it'll slowly start to bleach...

2011-07-12T18:24:00.000+08:00

so last night while completing my essay,
usher's so many girls played on the playlist,
it goes 'hey ladies, you know what time it is?'
i automatically looked up and checked the time, 2am...
then it goes on 'you looking good'
i was like 'yeah rite... =_= celebrate my panda eyes yo...'
don't need no champagne, need caffeine.
sorry la usher! wrong timing! XP

plenty of stuff to doooooo!
mission impossible la. T_T
let's do this!
i won't lose! >:-O

2011-07-10T16:38:00.000+08:00

broke a part of my sculpture last night... T_T
super calm... since this kind of disaster always happens... sigh...
slept at 8am. when people wake up, i sleep.
so just wait for it to dry while i sleep.
now i feel like just placing the broken part on the base and explain to the lecturer that i purposely make it that way. XP
somebody buy me a glue gun!
gah!!! annoying. =(
do colour extraction first...

2011-07-08T22:36:00.002+08:00

thinking back all that had happened just makes me feel more and more numb.

don't expect me to love blindly.
cause i don't think i can't handle so much disappointments and feel so insecure...
whether it's on purpose or you're just too dumb to care or notice.

if i'm still dreaming,

should i wake up now?...

2011-07-08T19:17:00.000+08:00

USE YOUR BRAIN!

damn it.

wonder if i could stand this any longer.

2011-07-03T23:25:00.000+08:00

accidentally crumpled the paper. =(

edit.

2011-07-03T22:31:00.001+08:00

short black hair

smokey eyes

long lashes

mocha lips

husky voice

killer heels

leather gloves

2011-07-03T16:33:00.001+08:00

if you heard what i had to say, would you still think this way?
such a kid... sigh
__________

i hate it when i spared my time by letting go of other things for someone then ends up that person left me just like that.
who do you think you are?!
i could have had so much fun with someone, somewhere else now instead of being alone at home. =_=
feel like blaming myself for always being so foolish and easily letting others get away with it the whole time...
how many second chances the world wants?
being alone is nothing new, i guess maybe i'm slowly getting used to it already...

disappointments everywhere.
feel like throwing something... gah!

haven't eaten anything for the pass 24 hours.

no appetite.

gonna do paper clay tonight, stupid wound, stupid deadline, can't wait anymore!

比你更在乎

2011-07-03T11:50:00.001+08:00

喝着后悔点错的苦，冷，淡咖啡，受不了了。
那么简单的事都已经使到我用完所有的勇气和力量了。。。
一直在想，问题出在哪里？或者其实没什么，只是自己想太多，担心太多。
就不能更加直接吗？一直胆小下去。
更何况我都已经放下自己的原则，主动了，还能怎么样？

走路时，每一步都非常沉重，真的很想在没人的夜街道上停下脚步。
站在路口中，希望那一刻我的时间可以停着，那样就不必那么辛苦。
等那么久，在要踏进大门的那一刻，却只得到这种的答复。
一个完全没有意见或解法的答复，脑袋空白，一直重读。
只能呆呆的走进房间坐下后又开始烦恼着。
就不能让我做人做得简单些吗？
我看，根本不了解我的困扰。

最后搞到整个人更加迷糊。。。
让我开始反复的思考这个那个，是否有哪些地方粗心了？
很久没浪费眼睛的‘水’了, 而且超讨厌随便浪费‘水’。
都已经习惯学会自然的关紧水龙头了，现在却那么容易地失手。
一直以来都非常的小心千万别做些以后会后悔，无聊的笨举动了。
现在却觉得有点好傻。
只不过没耐心而做出的小事。
写那么长，想那么多，最终的结论，却只能不停地告诉自己‘别想太多’。
发完神经，就记得呼醒自己，干吗这样看情况，乱折磨自己。
只希望别让我跌进了你的陷阱却无法把我救出来，你要有负责任。
我继续坚持的相信明天一定会更好。
好累。。。日子还是要过。。。

任何读到这文章的人，读完后帮我个忙，就请忘掉它吧。

5 centimeters per second

2011-07-01T14:14:00.001+08:00

Anybody should be fine if it was just to ease loneliness
Because the stars in the night sky seems like falling, I cant lie to myself

I am always searching somewhere for you
Even at the intersection and dream

I am always searching somewhere for your fragment
At the destination's shop, At the corner of the newspaper

I always end up looking somewhere for your smile
At the railway crossing of the fast pace town

Even though I know you won't be there

__________________

this movie is so sad! T_T

there isn't any humorous scenes in it la! so melancholy...

the one i downloaded, the audio is english, i would prefer japanese with english subs.

cause the feel would be different already.

i like the details in the art work. =D

somehow this anime reminds me of Honey & Clover. ^^

for me, i guess i tend to look into cars searching for familiar faces.

maybe not so much when i'm driving, later accident ar! XD

directed by Makoto Shinkai.
i checked his other works.
there's two more movies about long distance relationship and time also.
i guess he likes these kind of stuff. ;P

(The Place Promised in Our Early Days, Children Who Chase Lost Voices from Deep Below, Voices of a Distant Star)

june 25. Malacca one day trip.

2011-07-01T00:42:00.001+08:00

Malacca with Glow United! =D

didn't take many photos,

instead i was busy playing with my friend's dslr. XD

we had:

beef noodle

hainan chicken rice

cendol

satay
mango juice

seafood

layer cake

dessert! <3

bought this! <3

only 50 sens.

don't know what it's called exactly. just bubble~

it's been a very long time since i played this.

nostalgia. ^^

regret didn't buy a box home. XD

more regret for not bringing anything back other than memories. lol.

it felt so great to be by the sea.

closer

sea breeze!~ >_<

the last time i came Malacca i bought this!

i switched the things they're holding. hehe~

guess that's all.

2011-06-30T23:08:00.000+08:00

Assurance is measured by the time and effort you put into something

____________

since you're a man.

because you're a man.

____________

there's probably less than 5 times to make chances.

thinking bout it just...

2011-06-30T18:34:00.000+08:00

why can't i breathe normally?
feels like something in my chest is jumping.
like when i'm nervous or something.
but i'm sitting still and not moving around.
weird. =_=|||

2011-06-28T18:15:00.002+08:00

the process of waiting... ......... ..... .... >___________<||||

another monday

2011-06-27T20:01:00.001+08:00

up all night.
heavy rain.
traffic jam.
motorcycle hit the back of my car.
he goes flying.
people on the road! please stop attacking my butt! damn it!

not very satisfied with my sketch.
the last time i let her check she said ok, now check the same thing again suddenly so many things to correct
plus the object was moved!
she always said good, but then give me this kind of score.
the score feels worse than the accident.
just speechless, trying to figure out why but don't wanna ask why.
i don't know what she is thinking...
fishing infront of the easel. (3_3)
i enjoy sketching, but not much when i don't feel like it or have to compared with others.
where i am now, it's like being friends and also a friendly rival at the same time.
another week, another pile of new assignments.

i feel a fever coming. T_T
pray for me!

after dinner i shall forget all these and move on!
no worries...

2011-06-27T05:08:00.000+08:00

staying awake is like marathon.
when you start to rest halfway for too long it'll be very hard for you to get back up again.
i would keep myself busy the whole day, moving and jumping around making sure i don't stay still for too long.
stoning is no no! X(
cause if i do i would be fishing the entire day no matter how hard i try. (-_-)~zzzZZZ

owl in the night,
panda in the day.

i hope the lecturer don't use the projector later!

2011-06-27T04:45:00.001+08:00

every time it rains,

you would come to my mind.