been really lazy to update my blog. hehehe~

dad bought lotsa durian! and mum made durian cake.

melissa taught me to play maple. XD

i'm Aran! huhuhu~

first time playing ady got stranger kacau. 

camp was fun! very chill.

beach! <3

many things remind me of you.

not sure if i'd mentioned this, i found back my lost phone long time ago.

the process in retrieving it was long and annoying.

i didn't take any photo during camp cause my poor phone cacat liao.

scratches everywhere, vibrate rosak, the camera pun rosak. 

during camp, sand stuck in the keypad, it became very hard to type. 

but i don't think i can get a new phone soon. :(

then during camp some people took many of my ugly photos. D': sigh..

miss spending time with my buddies...

magic cards! i was more worried bout my hand than observing the trick. XD 

being there makes me feel old. have to start remind myself that now that i'm older, i have bigger responsibility and have to be more aware of those younger than me. to be there for them, able to provide help and solutions when needed.

back from hell. feeling very depressed since a long time.

really hate betrayal and lies. 

still, i couldn't blame anyone cause the choice was in my hands.

said i'm gullible. :'(

lukewarm. i admit that's me.

it's not easy for me to burn, i'm just... colder. seeing that it's not just in this, also in every other things in my life too. i don't see myself chasing after other things that i want very much, or at least not always. 

i guess that's my nature, always need plenty of time to warm up.

i know He is very patient, but i mustn't take advantage of it. i can't let my feelings out easily.

i know clearly the passion and thirst isn't there in the first place. but the bond is just there and it will always have it's place in my heart. it's something i won't ever let go even if i die. i'd made my decision so i won't look back.

if anyone in this world could be used to relate Him with would be my father,

saying i love him but i realized that i hardly make him feel proud or pleased with me.

very disappointed with myself. :'(

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don't like how flat my hair is cause its too straight, 

so i'd been wanting to cut fringe for a long time.

and today i finally cut my hair.

the hair stylist purposely drag the time, wash so slowly even when i don't want to, cut so slow, some more so ugly, until i also dunno how to explain to him, i gave up!

time to pay... SI BEH EXPENSIVE!!! D:<

stare at the mirror for so long before walking out to saloon. gah!!!

THE FEEL IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT!

i won't come here anymore...

when i run around, the fringe would bounce on my face.

makes me feel like a little girl. feel like going back to kindergarden. 

mum said that i looked 5 years younger. not sure whether to laugh or frown.

maybe i'm more suitable having a mature look... sigh...

gonna dye next. if not macam cleopatra. hope it won't become worse.

jangan ruin christmas saya, dahlah sangat lonely.

wuu~ wuu~

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one more week till sem 2 starts! D:

before panda mode starts again,

gonna party while i still can! *0*

how to have lotsa fun without spending and eat so much? think! T_T

confession

wonder if you still remember this. i used to not know what 'beb' means. potong steam... sorry! T_T